Where am I from? Where is my home?
This year in PSHE we asked ourselves these questions. For a multicultural kid, this is a difficult question to answer. At first I really struggled with trying to answer this, however, once we were told that we don’t need to answer with one sentence but can write a whole poem about it, it became a lot easier. Here is the poem I wrote:
The process of doing this was interesting. At first, I was worried because I am not a particularly good poet but once I had an idea on my structure it was ok and relatively easy to do. Then came the actual writing. I decided to start off with the actual locations I am from or where I have lived. As I wrote this at the very beginning of the year I had not considered adding Yokohama yet. This first verse was easy as it was just stating facts but the rest was slightly more challenging. For this, I chose locations I enjoy being, people I like being around and things I enjoy. The last line of each verse was always slightly confusing and now looking back at it I see there are a few things wrong with them. However I decided to keep them the way they originally were as I am sure I had good reasons to write what I did, plus they still mean something to me.
I feel this activity really helped me understand that it is ok to be from multiple places and that most people are. It is hard to say that you are just from one place and only one experience made you who you are. Everyone is made out of many parts and it is important to know that to really understand the way people are and behave.
I think this is something everyone should try, especially multicultural kids as we are the ones often confused about where we are really from. Also, I think I might make this into a yearly activity as my locations, people and interests do change every once in a while but I will slightly change the structure as I am not longer happy with the way the last line of each verse is laid out.
Reflecting on where I am from is important because for many people this is a major part of their identity. As a student who has moved around, however, there is no set home for me and I am not from a single place. I am made up of many different places and homes. This is important for me to know and appreciate and make sure that I don’t obsess on who I am and where I am from. This is important for my wellness as I do not want to focus on questions that don’t have a set answer and will just make me feel bad.
This year we did the MBTI Test to further understand ourselves. My results are in the following PDF and I’d like to use this as an opportunity to look deeper into this and to try to really understand the information this offers me.
I find that looking at this has helped me understand myself on a deeper level. For ISFJ I was already aware that I am an introvert as I get my energy from being alone, not from being with others. For S (Sensors) I had to think about it more deeply. I know I like to think about what could be, I think everyone does, but in the end, I do tend to come back to what is and how I could realistically change that to what I want. Also, I do often find that when trying to solve a problem that I look at past problems I faced and how solving them worked out. Based on this I then make a decision. For F (Feelers) think this was and still is something important for me to know. I already knew that I liked helping others and work in a supportive rather than a competitive environment and that I always try my best to understand others and see things from their perspective. What surprised me more was the fact that I seem to make decisions based on my values. In retrospect it makes sense based on my answers, I guess I just wasn’t completely aware of this before. Finally J (Judgers). When I first saw that I was a “Judger” I thought it was going to be something negative but reading through the explanation, it made sense. I do tend to dislike surprises in my work and relax only after I am done with my work. One thing I did know previously, however, is how much I like control over things I am working on. It is important to me that I know exactly when and how I will be able to finish my project and what the steps are for me to complete this project.
The results show a lot more than just the MBTI score but just looking at the meaning of each of the letters I got helped me understand myself a lot better. I think the MBTI is a very interesting way to explore and understand who you are as a person and I am glad that we do this as a school.
I think it was important for me to reflect on to see what my strengths and weaknesses are. Seeing these helps me see where I can improve and what I am already doing well, can help me improve my general life style. However, I also need to stay aware that I can not be perfect at everything and don’t have to be.