Both of my parents are Japanese, and either of them can’t speak English fluently. My mom always had doubts about Japanese education, which is why my mum let me attend a international school in Japan since 2 years old.
When I was little, I had negative thoughts and embarrassment towards my parents because they can speak no English compared to other parents. I didn’t like translating English to Japanese during parents teacher-led conference when we travel to different countries and even writing an email in English. To be honest, it is yet not my favorite thing, however, I am more appreciated to the fact that it gave me motivation to self- educate to become a close native English speaker. I remember I used to write down words, use a dictionary to search words and so on. Now I am appreciated to my parents because without this translation I did in the past, my English and Japanese wouldn’t be better. Although, my use of language has developed and I am capable to use both languages equally in a different situation, however, there are aspects of me I am more American inside but Japanese outside. As I grow older and older, my Japanese pride gets smaller and smaller, I really don’t know why, but I personally think my personality best fits in the U.S rather than here. But most importantly it is because I speak English more often than Japanese. English is the language that is been instructed in School, I listen and read it in English and I write in English than Japanese. Therefore, I sometimes question about my Japanese culture, even though I am pure Japanese and I never lived in a different country.
Furthermore, Stereotypically speaking, Japanese follows the rules, they are quiet, they don’t share their opinion frequently. This is not me. I am super loud, I love to share ideas and I somewhat follow the rules ( depends what it is) but not always. I also like to celebrate events and the fun fact is like I don’t like Sushi but I like sushi’s in America ( Spicy tuna rolls and California rolls).
As mentioned, I question about my culture and I believe that my Japanese pride will be taken away when I attend to a University in the State soon and of course my English will be stronger than my Japanese. Because I have both languages, it expresses who I am. If couldn’t speak Japanese or English, I feel like I wouldn’t be the same- me. Thus, I always take it positively and it will help me in future internships and businesses.